I even have a superstition that has grown on me
as the result of invisible hands
coming all the time..
Namely, that if you follow your bliss
you put yourself on a kind of track
that has been there all the while,
waiting for you.
And the life that you ought to be living,
is the one you ARE living.
-joseph campbell

Saturday, January 9, 2010

I Will Not Be Cold

With record breaking cold weather here in the South
I was trying to convince Cami to wear
her fuzzy blanket sleeper to bed
last night.

She wanted to wear lighter weight cotton pajamas.
I told her I just didn't want her to be cold.
She answered:
"Don't worry, mom, I'll be sleeping right beside you,
in your bed.
I will not be cold.'

She was speaking the truth.
And she has known cold.
Living two years in an orphanage
without heat.
She wore her pink coat day and night.
She was lucky to have it.
But she was likely still cold.

I am so thankful when those toasty toes
touch me in sleep.
We are warm.
I hope there are enough
soft blankets and hugs
to erase
her memories of being cold and alone.


  1. I know. We were there in Northern China in November and even WITH heat on in a couple of the places the orphans were so bundled up they couldn't move and it was STILL freezing. The windows and doors just let in everything and no insulation. To think of where our kids have come from makes my heart shudder. To think of them all warm and toasty makes it smile ... until I think of those still there. Thanks for posting.

  2. I think I've told you this--how I cannot stand to look at the photos of the kids I love before they came home. Breaks my heart.

    Does Cami ever look at the photos? I'm not sure I would show them to my own child (if I had adopted one).

    So blessed to live in America...wish I could bring them all home.